beingbeaple

I’ve never really been adept at handling social situations such as barkada trips and family gatherings. I’m the type of girl who would definitely fit the description "couch potato" for I RARELY voluntarily go out to "engage in healthy interaction with people from outside my household". I’m not sweet and I’m not sophisticated; all that I have is my attitude - sass and spunk that would give Kagome (from Inu Yasha, in case anyone can relate) a run for her money.

It’s my cousin’s and my uncle’s birthday today. The "three of us" - I am referring to my mother, my father, and me - went to my aunt’s house to celebrate. Not that I don’t like being at my aunt’s or whatever, but the moment I finished eating I felt like going back home - what an ungrateful little guest I am! Seriously, it somehow felt surreal that I was there in that setting, listening to some half-drunk guy singing a golden oldie and looking on as other people enjoyed the night away. I was just a girl who kept trotting after her mother because she was afraid of being left at a table all by herself…

To think, even my outfit didn’t match! Imagine wearing ultra-high heels while traipsing in a mud-covered path! Honestly!

I would have loved to stay in the party if I had someone - aside from my parents - to talk to or something. But you know, even if my cousins were there I bet I still wouldn’t have fit that well either. I mean, most of my cousins are boys - and God knows I’m not very good at conversations with members of the opposite sex, whether we are blood-related or not - and the girls are just too young or too old. Something like that.

It seriously feels different when you’re an only child. Sure, being a soloist has it perks - you get almost everything you want, you learn to live by your own standards and rules, etc - but in the long run, kids with larger families still have better "people skills". Yes, I can talk to a LARGE crowd of people without feeling even slightly abashed, but try to see me when I’m "alone with a stranger" and you’ll wonder if THAT’s the same person who’s writing this entry.

Of course, there are those special entities that I feel tightly bonded with. For example, I can sit with Jee Ann for hours without saying more than a thousand words and still know that she doesn’t FULLY mind my inability to carry a decent conversation. Just the way we sat in my old room this afternoon - her watching Lord of the Rings: Return of the King because she hasn’t finished it yet; me reading something I’m not really supposed to be reading. But even though we didn’t even talk that much - just a few quips about Orlando Bloom’s transformation from Legolas to Will Turner - I still felt amazingly comfortable with her.

Hmm. I guess it’s just the friendship factor. I’m blessed to have friends like that.

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